The past few months, people have been asking me “can you see the light at the end of the tunnel?” and I have stared them in the face, laughed a bit, and said “Get real with your life…I have too much to do before that tunnel opens.”
Well, today is that day. For months I have seen no end in sight, although I knew it’d be coming. Today it just appeared almost magically! I didn’t have time to prepare, it just crept up. I guess that’s what it’s like to live in the moment and not stare at the end. At roughly 2:30pm I submitted my final school assignment. It is quite strange. I thought it would be this big magical moment, but it just happened as I sat in this coffee shop (with some most interesting individuals from downtown Dallas, I might add) and clicked a simple button on my computer. Nothing drastic happened, except a friend walked in and I got to celebrate with someone in person. It was REALLY good timing! I have been sitting in this armed chair with a huge smile on my face, unable to wipe it off for about an hour now.
When you’ve been in school since you were 3, the moment of finalization is quite surreal. No more syllabi, no more book lists, no more papers, grades, sleep deprivation. This has become the norm. For 20 years…being a student has defined my life. That, my friends, is insane! This is one of those indescribable moments, mixed with excitement, peace and then a sudden freak out moment. What the heck am I supposed to do now?
I feel freedom, fear, and then a lot of enthusiasm! I have always been afraid of the future, and afraid to be a grown up. Today, I feel slightly ready. Ok, who am I kidding?!? I am not ready…but I am most def. ready to be done with the stresses of school.
You may be thinking to yourself, “self, what is Ashley going to do now?!?” Well, for the next couple of weeks, I have on my agenda to be creative, write music, practice guitar and piano, watch tv, sleep, and maybe work on my resume to send out. maybe. I am filled with this hope of what is going to happen next…at the moment. Don’t ask me tomorrow, cause reality might set in. For now, anyway, I am hopeful that God is about to lead me into some crazy awesome things! In the words of my dear friend Steven Rungaitis, the world is an option. More specifically, it’s my option! Who knows where I will be!!! I could go anywhere from Sydney to Seattle, to small town east Texas, Kenya or Ireland. Where shall we go next Lord?!?!
Until graduation, on May 8th, I am excited to catch up with friends (and for some…meet their newborns!!) , enjoy the precious individuals that I have met during my three years in graduate school, and pursue things that I have put off for these years, to get through the place God has had me.
The other thing, besides all of that which I am looking forward to the most this week, is wednesday. Why? because my dear friends…wednesday is TRAVELZOO DAY!!!!!!!!! I am looking forward to some incredible travel deals on this weeks travelzoo.com top 20, and I just might be crazy enough to go into a little bit of debt to purchase a vacay. I deserve it. 🙂
On that note, i’m going to go have fun!!!!