He makes all things new!

As I am sitting here bundled up in a blanket with a hot cup of chai, I cannot believe that I’m in the USA and I cannot believe that it is New Year’s day, let alone the year 2013! I have been back in the states from Kenya for a week and four days…and what a week and four days it has been.

Upon leaving Kenya, I walked through the international terminal at Nairobi’s Jomo Kenyatta International Airport and cried as I walked around the stores waiting for 11:40pm to arrive. I was so sad that I had to leave this new life I had made, these people that I had fallen in love with, and the ministry that my heart had become attached to. I am sure that everyone that saw me thought “This girl has completely lost her mind”, but I obviously did not care! Strangely enough, 2 flights later, I was crying in the DFW airport as I got off the plane and sprinted to the customs line.  The sweet, old texas customs agent with his precious accent, looked at my passport and then looked at me and said “Well welcome home sweet heart” and I just tearfully said “Thank you sir”. Then when I walked through the doors at the arrival area and burst into tears when I saw my family, my best friend, and some others welcoming me home. I think that this will now be tradition for whenever I am going to Kenya and coming back (not that I know when that will be).  My heart has officially straddled two continents and will not hop over to onto one or the other.

This first week home has been full of things that used to be so normal to be but now are strangely unsettling.  As I struggle to re-enter my culture and adjust to the United States, I am struggling to figure out who exactly I am and while that is so difficult because I have changed so much, the Lord has encouraged me with some deep spiritual truths! There is this battle to be pulled back into the person I was before I moved to Kenya.  When I read 2 Corinthians 5:17, I was reminded that I don’t have to be pulled back into the old me. Therefore if anyone is in Christ,  He is a new creation. the old has gone and the new has come.”  I can just rest in the reality that I am a new and improved version of myself, and that the new has come! I also am resting in the fact that God says HE is creator, redeemer and restorer. He creates and He makes all things new and He restores and redeems things in my life to newness and likeness to his son. I’m so incredibly encouraged by that! I don’t have to worry about how I will fit in America now, nor do I have to worry about what’s next or what this year will bring, because I know and love and trust the One who makes all things new. If I have learned anything in these last 6 months, it’s that the Lord Jesus Christ is more than able, and He WILL redeem and restore everything in my life that is broken until His return. He WILL lead, guide and direct my steps. He WILL speak. He WILL make me new because His word promises that in HIM, I am a new creation. 
Isaiah 43:19 says “See, I am doing a NEW THING! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?! I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” I am certain that this year will not be what I expect, but I am certain that it will be a new thing, and that He is making a way…whatever that looks like.  I have decided that if it’s back to Kenya, or off to some other state, or another crazy land…wherever He leads, and whatever He asks, I am ready to obey, because I have seen with my eyes, and know in my heart that his promises are true and that He can be trusted in this new year and this new season. Whatever he does, he will take this life and he will help me create a new normal again in the US. He will give me new purpose as He has shaped me and molded me these last months. So, while it may change tomorrow with the way my adjustment is going, today, I am choosing to look forward with expectancy and joy at what the Lord Almighty will do!

I hope you are encouraged to do the same this New Year’s day. While you may not have lived in a foreign country, you, just like me, are not the same person you were 6 months ago. It may be more subtle, but you are constantly growing and changing. For those of you that know they Lord Jesus, there is no way you are the same that you were last week even. He is constantly at work in your life, your heart, your situation and circumstances. Don’t be discouraged, but be encouraged that the God who causes the sun to rise every day, will move and show Himself strong in this new Year. 

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